So, Wow, it all starts tommorrow. Year 11.
I remember starting year seven, now it's all changing.
I guess i should tell you all about myself.
My name's Bethany, not Beth, always hated it, why i dont know but hey. moving on.
I'm 15 and i live in England, UK.
I have three of the most amazing best friends in the world. Joey, Rach and Adam.
I have an amazing Boyfriend, Ben. I really love him, yet i've never met him. I know he loves me and i feel so connected to him, even though he lives 80 miles away.
We've been dating for two months, and I know what you're thinking 'oh, she's only 15, she doesnt know a thing about love, esecially when they've been together only two months' but we've been through so much! and i trust him with my whole life.
Where i live, i dont have a lot of friends, people dont tend to like to get to know me at my school cause i'm different. I'm classed as the outcast grunger.
The chavs hate me.
The Emos, or as me and Joey call them, Jessemos hate me.
The unpopular hate me.
I dont really know why though, i keep my head down, do my work, and those friend who do know me are amazing and i love them so much.
I have alot of friends off of the internet, and my parents find it difficult to deal with, but i dont. cause you know that they are the ones who accept you for your personality.
I've been through everything with Rach, and i'm not going to say what. But i've known her for two years and it's been the best two years of my life.
Same with Adam, he's amazing and ALWAYS makes me laugh.
The one person i really am thankful for is Joey.
She is the one person from my school who always rings me and gets together with me, and vice versa.
i do alot of things with her, i tell her alot of things asweel, sometimes it pisses Ben off cause i talk to Joey about issues.
But he accepts that i need to talk to people sometime.
I love rock music, or as Ben would class 'shit music'
My Favourite Bands are New Found Glory and Paramore, they've both changed my life.
I love Avenged Sevenfold, I think their guitaring is amazing and i go hyper on it!
I love Enter Shikari, me and Joey go asosolute skiz when we hear them and spazz majourly.
Music is a main part of my life, I play flute and Bass. They're my main two instruments but i can play others. I love to sing, and i've been told i'm not too bad either.
I have three very overprotective friends, Stacey, Liam and Will.
My adoptive brothers and sisters.
Stacey goes absoulute skitz if anyone says anything against me, same with Liam and Will.
I'm so thankful i have them cause i can talk to them about anything at all.
So why am I writing a blog?
I have so many feelings going around inside my head i just need to get themout and i don't like talking about them with my friends.
My parents really get to me, As strict Christians, they wont let me lead my own life. I'm not allowed to make my own mistakes, for example. I'm not allowed to go to gigs in London, even with a massive group of friends, unless they're there. and i am NOT taking my parents to a Enter Shikari gig. Wow they would hate it.
I've seen McFly live three times. they were good gigs, but i've grown out of them now.
As i grew out of McFly, i grew out of an amazing friendship with my best mate, Bev, that really hurt me. and i can't be bothered to go into circumstances, but basically she said some really hurtfull stuff and i hate her.
Which is sad.
I'm doing 11 GCSES.
English, Maths, Science, PE, Geography, History, French, Drama, Religious Studies, ICT, and i can never remember the last one lol 
I get all good grades, and I'm a prefect.
My parents, even though I'm sure they dont mean to, put me down alot, i feel a real pressure to get amazing results for my GCSES. And i always feel the pressure to do better than my little sister Beki. But that wont happen.
So I'm a Christian, yes I am, i believe in the whole Jesus died for our sins stuff.
But not the whole sex before marriage stuff. I am still a virgin, but that will hopefully all change in October when i go and see Ben.
He goes to a private school, and has to go to school on saturdays, whcih means i cant see him then! ugh life sucks.
Whats my main poblem at the moment?
My parents.
I need to tell them about Ben, but i cant until after October.
Cause i want to see him at least once before I tell them.
How Should I Tell Them?
Dont expect anyone will read this, or anyone will comment back.
but if you are, give me advice please.
I really need it.
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- 2007-09-04 @ 22:24:07
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Rocksplorer
- 2007-09-05 @ 15:21:29
The way i see it, you need to let your parents know they can trust you. Get their permission to go to a city a fair distance away for a day trip, things lke that. Build it up from there so they KNOW they can trust you to do things.
Also, year 11 is where it starts to get good. I mean, sure, there's lots of hard work, but it's an opportunity to prove yourself, and leave the idiotic and plain nasty people behind.
A lot of people have been there, and believe me, from your age onwards it gets a whole lot better.
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TheJinxy
- 2007-09-05 @ 17:41:57
A lot of parents are very protective (sometimes too protective) over their children. But I guess it's better than them not caring at all. You need to sit down with them and tell them how you feel about it and that you need some independence. They have faith in God, they should put some faith in you. I think going off somewhere without telling them is going to backfire badly if they find out what you've been up to and they will throw it in your face everytime you try to get them to trust you. Good luck
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I'm two years older than you and believe it or not, I know exactly how you feel. My parents are exactly the same. I've never even been to a gig and only recently did they let me go to a different city by myself.
When I was at school, I had my own group of friends. Small group yet knit tight. I was the smartest of the group, and apart from one, they were all in the lower sets, struggled. But we got through everything and they helped me through my bullying.
Especially in years 7 and 8, the years when i had the fewest friends, i turned to the internet for friends. People laughed because i was large and smarter than them, the internet allowed for my personality to shine. It became my lifeline. I eventually found a guy as well, called patrick. we became such good friends, and he was in surrey!! 200 miles away! heh but he was 18 to my 14 and of course the parents and bubble wrap came out, he drove up to see me and we hit it off. Sadly it didn't last cos he was an asshole. I eventually hit it off with my friend's brother so it was all good.
I don't tell my parents a lot, hell i hardly tell them anything. I hate the fact they haven't allowed me to make my own mistakes, them making decisions for me, I'm a christian too, only cos i'm baptised. we don't follow the religion. I got good grades, took 9 gcses and did great.
I'm always competing with my younger sister beckii. shes 2 years younger, but she is slimmer, a hell of a lot more confident and just all around has got the better end of the family stick.
I'm not sure what to say about ben really. I know how it feels to really want to meet someone somewhere else. I went from leeds to birmingham just to see someone. But I know that if something happened to you they'd be distraught. It depends how they feel about you going 80 miles away first, never mind meeting ben. WIth going to private school and all, i'm sure your parents would be happy with you, if it wasn't for the fact you've never met him.
Erm, ask your parents how they feel about you going to where-ever it is (ben's town/city), say you'll take a friend. Give a starting point. Don't mention ben. Letting them know where you are is a start, because i can garantee if they find out you've travelled 80 miles and met a boy they don't know without them knowing, it will be a hell of a lot worse than finding out you were where u said u were, just met ben (who they don't know and didn't know you were meeting).
I know i've rambled on but i hope i've been some help. If you ever need to chat, i'm here. it seems we have a lot in common. including our taste in music lol PARAMORE ROCK!! xx